ual abuse=self abuse????

You are ually traumatized, and you you need to get professional help, you may think you have beaten this on your own, but you haven't, it still haunts you in your subconscious state, don't be embarred to seek professional consoling and what not, some traumatizing experiences any body will need help coping with and leaving it in their past and yes, ual abuse often results in self abuse because the victim often feels the need to punish themselves due to being convinced of lack of self worth.