Depressed I don't know what I want and I don't why..?

Basically my Childhood was taken from me by a friend, and we would explore and stuff and he didn't do anything but he made me grow up real fast. I just watched all three lion king movies because I never saw the series before, and I enjoyed watching it but it made me that I am way past those days that you can play and have fun. And seeing Simba and Nala grow up so fast in the movie made me relate to it. Even though in the movies they just didn't want to bore you, I liked them as cubs, and I feel depressed because I grew up to fast like in the movies..I know it's just a movie, but I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what I want and that also depresses me, because I will take an evaluation for fun, and even though I don't think it describes me, I don't know how I feel. I usually suffer from minor depression, but this time I just can't shake it and I never felt this bad before. It's almost as if I have nothing left to look forward too. I feel like I not only grew up to fast, but just lost everything. I just feel pretty lost right now.